Monday, August 4, 2008
hangin' with the boys
the boys trying to make the best of having to go shopping with me
Chad and Aaron hanging under a banana tree
boy humorMonday, July 28, 2008
looking at Psalms 1
PSALMS 1 - looking at this this morning and seeing some very difficult reproof -
1 How blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked, Nor stand in the path of sinners, Nor sit in the seat of scoffers!
what is the counsel of the wicked - well the simple answer is anything that is not completely based on the Word of God - OUCH!!! that's a tough one . How about talk shows - gosh sometimes they sound so good in what they are saying - i believe that is called tickling our ears: the Word of God has alot to say about that as well. Our flesh wants to listen to the counsel that works with our weaknesses but in reading this verse we can clearly see that it is WICKED. sure i could go on and on here but i think the word WICKED is well put.
Nor stands in the path of sinners: how close do we allow ourselves to get to the line of sinful things? if we want to be blessed then it's pretty clear we need to stay clear of that path of the things of sinners. Yes I know that everything is permissible but is everything beneficial? Will it stump my progress in looking like Jesus? What form of entertainment is lessening my resolve to righteousness?
these are all very tough questions that I'm throwing around in my mind asking myself. I think this is going to be a hard day for me meditating on this verse and allowing it to nourish my body soul and mind with everything that God has intended it to be for me today.
remember keep chasing righteousness!!!!
1 How blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked, Nor stand in the path of sinners, Nor sit in the seat of scoffers!
what is the counsel of the wicked - well the simple answer is anything that is not completely based on the Word of God - OUCH!!! that's a tough one . How about talk shows - gosh sometimes they sound so good in what they are saying - i believe that is called tickling our ears: the Word of God has alot to say about that as well. Our flesh wants to listen to the counsel that works with our weaknesses but in reading this verse we can clearly see that it is WICKED. sure i could go on and on here but i think the word WICKED is well put.
Nor stands in the path of sinners: how close do we allow ourselves to get to the line of sinful things? if we want to be blessed then it's pretty clear we need to stay clear of that path of the things of sinners. Yes I know that everything is permissible but is everything beneficial? Will it stump my progress in looking like Jesus? What form of entertainment is lessening my resolve to righteousness?
these are all very tough questions that I'm throwing around in my mind asking myself. I think this is going to be a hard day for me meditating on this verse and allowing it to nourish my body soul and mind with everything that God has intended it to be for me today.
remember keep chasing righteousness!!!!
A Letter from my Jesus
My Sweet Girl,
I beckon you to come to My Word for comfort, strength, wisdom and knowledge. When you do, My Words will pierce like a surgeon’s scalpel, both cutting and healing. My Word will cut to the very place where thoughts and attitudes come together, at the joining of soul and spirit, providing you with a healing that can not be obtained by any other measure.
My Word is given to you as a vehicle to carry you so that you might be able to know Me and see Me, your Lord Jesus Christ.
If you desire to grow in My Word then become a woman with a chisel and explore My Word. Let My Word become your Word, and I promise you will greatly grow.
I challenge you, My precious girl to rediscover the Bible in your own life, to regain the same hunger and zeal you felt when you first heard and felt My Name in your life. Great and mighty things I hold for you. Come enjoy Me enjoying you.
Wholeheartedly Devoted To You,
Jesus
I beckon you to come to My Word for comfort, strength, wisdom and knowledge. When you do, My Words will pierce like a surgeon’s scalpel, both cutting and healing. My Word will cut to the very place where thoughts and attitudes come together, at the joining of soul and spirit, providing you with a healing that can not be obtained by any other measure.
My Word is given to you as a vehicle to carry you so that you might be able to know Me and see Me, your Lord Jesus Christ.
If you desire to grow in My Word then become a woman with a chisel and explore My Word. Let My Word become your Word, and I promise you will greatly grow.
I challenge you, My precious girl to rediscover the Bible in your own life, to regain the same hunger and zeal you felt when you first heard and felt My Name in your life. Great and mighty things I hold for you. Come enjoy Me enjoying you.
Wholeheartedly Devoted To You,
Jesus
Friday, July 25, 2008
Dear Friends,
I have spoken to Pastor Greg and he wants each and every one of you to know how your messages are ministering to him, Cathe, Jonathan, and Brittany. They appreciate your condolences and prayers. He will be posting a personal response as soon as he is able. God bless each of you and we want you to know that we covet all of your prayers.
In lieu of flowers, people may contribute to a memorial fund for Brittany Laurie & Children. Checks may be made out to Harvest Christian Fellowship with the notation, “Christopher Laurie Memorial Fund”.
Carol Faulkner
Administrative Assistant to Pastor Greg Laurie
You may pass along condolences and thoughts for the Laurie family by posting a comment here.
http://blog.greglaurie.com/
I have spoken to Pastor Greg and he wants each and every one of you to know how your messages are ministering to him, Cathe, Jonathan, and Brittany. They appreciate your condolences and prayers. He will be posting a personal response as soon as he is able. God bless each of you and we want you to know that we covet all of your prayers.
In lieu of flowers, people may contribute to a memorial fund for Brittany Laurie & Children. Checks may be made out to Harvest Christian Fellowship with the notation, “Christopher Laurie Memorial Fund”.
Carol Faulkner
Administrative Assistant to Pastor Greg Laurie
You may pass along condolences and thoughts for the Laurie family by posting a comment here.
http://blog.greglaurie.com/
A good read
okay i know you all must have read this many times before however today God wants to speak very clearly to you, cause He's pretty sure you missed it last time
Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens . 'Great,' she thought. 'Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry.' She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn't there. She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying.. She prayed for calm, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens. When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found. Although she was calm now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. She thought of the bible verse 'The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth.' She thought, 'Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me.' Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, 'Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?' Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it! The story doesn't end there. Brenda's father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story ! of the a nt, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the caption, 'Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You.' I think it would do all of us some good to say, 'God, I don't know why You want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will.' God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him....I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)
Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens . 'Great,' she thought. 'Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry.' She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn't there. She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying.. She prayed for calm, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens. When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found. Although she was calm now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. She thought of the bible verse 'The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth.' She thought, 'Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me.' Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, 'Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?' Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it! The story doesn't end there. Brenda's father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story ! of the a nt, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the caption, 'Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You.' I think it would do all of us some good to say, 'God, I don't know why You want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will.' God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him....I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Happy Birthday Julie K
I love you so very much!!!Praying God's best for you in this new birth year - see you in a fewxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Our Prayers are with the Laurie family
Please pray for the Laurie familyJuly 24th, 2008
Statement on the Death of Christopher Laurie, Son of Pastor Greg LaurieJuly 24, 2008
Christopher Laurie, son of Pastor Greg Laurie and Cathe Laurie of Harvest Christian Fellowship in Riverside, Calif., died this morning in a car accident in Riverside. A resident of Huntington Beach, Laurie, 33, served as the art director at Harvest Christian Fellowship for the past three years.
In addition to his parents, Christopher is survived by his wife, Brittany, and daughter, Stella, as well as his brother Jonathan. Christopher and his wife are expecting another daughter in November.
Statement on the Death of Christopher Laurie, Son of Pastor Greg LaurieJuly 24, 2008
Christopher Laurie, son of Pastor Greg Laurie and Cathe Laurie of Harvest Christian Fellowship in Riverside, Calif., died this morning in a car accident in Riverside. A resident of Huntington Beach, Laurie, 33, served as the art director at Harvest Christian Fellowship for the past three years.
In addition to his parents, Christopher is survived by his wife, Brittany, and daughter, Stella, as well as his brother Jonathan. Christopher and his wife are expecting another daughter in November.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Leaders Appreciation Dinner
Donna, Steph G and Lea - Becky and Lori are int he back ground
Joanne, Melissa, Jennifer peaking her head in and Peggy.
Karen. Carrie. Melissa looking elswhere, Becky and Jennifer
Becky and Lori
Steph and LoriI wanted to post some of the pix from the leader's dinner - this was a night that Lori gave us to say thank you for our service - Pastor Bob and Becky joined us - it was a beautiful summer evening with good food - great fellowship and good truth from the Word.
DUH!!!
I had one of the Duh moments this morning during my quiet time. I was actually just sitting and praying, praising Jesus for all the great things that He did during VBS. I was thinking about my week and my unexplainable ability to do what I did everyday. I went into VBS on Monday with only having a total of 5 hours (combined) of sleep for the 3 days prior. I was at the church working 9 to 12 hour days the 3 days prior. Then VBS hit, each day I was there from 5:30am until 4pm(earliest) 10PM (latest). We (Worship Team) did worship/ jump around crazy fun stuff with the kids for 1 hour 10 min each day ( We were also doing worker kid entertainment each day) 2 nights i never slept and the other 3 nights i got 2-4 hours. On Friday night our Friend's and Family Night, God allowed me to organize this amazing event. Lot's and lot's of work after a very long exhausting week - but so completely worth it! There is no reason why I should have been standing by that point. I hurt but I felt so full of life and excitement for what God was doing that I just kept moving. We ended the evening with EVERDAY!! a fast hype song. When we finished that song I could actually fell this sensation that I'm choosing to call, God lifting His hand from my Physical body. I was instantly unable to barely move. It was actually pretty funny (at least to see) but so very painful all rolled into one. I knew then my work was done. My Lord had carried me all week to do the work He called me to do. Now it was finished and I was so very finished! In my pain and exhaustion I was so thankful for who He is in my life and prayed that I would always live in this great truth. What He calls us to do no matter what the surrounding circumstances are He is faithful to give us what we need in the moment. The key is knowing what He has called us to and then trusting that He will make provisions each step of the way. We simply need to trust Him. So this morning as I was praying through this I was hit with the funny stick that DuH!! my word this year is ENDURE!!!! I love this lesson I'm learning and growing in. Don't get me wrong it is not easy but it's not supposed to be. ENDURE!!
Hebrews 5:4
And no one takes the honor to himself, but receives it when he is called by God, even as Aaron was.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
new carpet
7 years ago when we moved into our church building, we all wrote on the sanctuary floor before the carpet was laid - today the carpet is being removed - there's little perks like this one that make being one of the last people to ever leave the building so worth it - as the men pulled the carpet up and I walked on that floor reading what so many of us wrote, it was emotional - it was an honor - i was so blessed to read the scriptures, to see the names of the people - i took many pictures, here are a few - it's hard to believe it's been 7 years - thank you Jesus for allowing me to be blessed in this beautiful way.I'm Back
VBS was so amazing - God did what only He can do and worked the best plan ever. I am currently experiencing the VBS hangover, but so very worth it - i'd start back up tomorrow if I could - I'm posting a picture of steph- I don't have any other pix unfortunately - I realized that all the pictures I was taking was on the church camera ( duh!!) I'll try to get some of those awesome pix and post them but until then here's steph.
Monday, July 14, 2008
VBS DAY
it's here ! don't have time to say much, i need to get to the church - yes this early - no sleep last night and my entire devotion this morning was on rest - yes i laughed too - but i get it, i know what God is saying, don't worry ;0)
i miss my sis not being here - i miss my friend not doing worship with me - do you think God is trying to tell me something??????? - i know i know!
I will try to remember to take pictures today - the decor is so fantastic
i left at 8:45pm Bobby left at 10pm and he said they were still going strong (6-people) - so I imagine it was a midnighter - All for Jesus
All for Jesus!!!!
i miss my sis not being here - i miss my friend not doing worship with me - do you think God is trying to tell me something??????? - i know i know!
I will try to remember to take pictures today - the decor is so fantastic
i left at 8:45pm Bobby left at 10pm and he said they were still going strong (6-people) - so I imagine it was a midnighter - All for Jesus
All for Jesus!!!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
the day before VBS - it's here the day we have prepared and prayed for - i have my last practice with my worship team and after many cuts(songs) and my sweet friend( pillar) having to step out( sickness) i'm ready - the last little details ( technical ) will happen has it happens - the battle that goes along with something like this is insane but this year for the first time, i feel as if i have kept most of it in perspective - okay i'm not saying i didn't blow it - what i'm saying is quickly when the bomb would hit i would find my Jesus in it - now i'm sure since i said this, today ought to be interesting - that's okay, i know who it's all for - God is building His church (people) and for those of us that allow Him to use us we get blessed to be active participants - the reward far exceeds the hard stuff. here is a good devotion from this morning.
I will build My church. Matthew 16:18
This promise has enormous implications for every follower of Jesus Christ. "I will build My church." Each of the five words in this brief declaration reveals an essential truth of Christian life and service.
First, this promise discloses who will build the church. "I (Jesus) will build My church." Jesus is the builder of the church, not man. He wants to use us in the process, but He is the builder. Paul understood this arrangement. "According to the grace of God which was given to me, as a wise master builder I have laid the foundation" (1 Corinthians 3:10). By the grace of God, Paul served the Lord. As he went about proclaiming Christ, the Lord was using him to lay the foundation (Christ) in lives that were being saved and individual churches that were being started.
Second, Jesus' promise reveals the certainty of His church being built. "I will (assuredly) build My church." There is no room for doubt. Jesus will do what He is promising. The only question for us is whether or not we will be available as a part of this wondrous process. The Lord wants to make us usable for His work: "sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work" (2 Timothy 2:21).
Third, this promise indicates the manner in which the Lord wants to work. "I will build (construct) My church." As with any construction project, there are both the quantitative and qualitative aspects. The Lord saves souls, adding them to His church in a quantitative increase. "And the Lord added to the church daily those who were being saved" (Acts 2:47). The Lord also enriches those He saves, bringing to His church qualitative development. "And with great power the apostles gave witness to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And great grace was upon them all" (Acts 4:33).
Fourth, His promise settles the issue of ownership. "I will build My (Jesus') church." The church does not belong to the Pastor, the Church Board, or the District Office. It is Jesus' church. He paid the price to redeem us: "the church of God which He purchased with His own blood" (Acts 20:28).
Fifth, this promise specifies exactly what Jesus is going to build. "I will build My church (His people)." The church is not a building. This word (church) literally speaks of "a called out people." "But you are…His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; who once were not a people but are now the people of God" (1 Peter 2:9-10).
I will build My church. Matthew 16:18
This promise has enormous implications for every follower of Jesus Christ. "I will build My church." Each of the five words in this brief declaration reveals an essential truth of Christian life and service.
First, this promise discloses who will build the church. "I (Jesus) will build My church." Jesus is the builder of the church, not man. He wants to use us in the process, but He is the builder. Paul understood this arrangement. "According to the grace of God which was given to me, as a wise master builder I have laid the foundation" (1 Corinthians 3:10). By the grace of God, Paul served the Lord. As he went about proclaiming Christ, the Lord was using him to lay the foundation (Christ) in lives that were being saved and individual churches that were being started.
Second, Jesus' promise reveals the certainty of His church being built. "I will (assuredly) build My church." There is no room for doubt. Jesus will do what He is promising. The only question for us is whether or not we will be available as a part of this wondrous process. The Lord wants to make us usable for His work: "sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work" (2 Timothy 2:21).
Third, this promise indicates the manner in which the Lord wants to work. "I will build (construct) My church." As with any construction project, there are both the quantitative and qualitative aspects. The Lord saves souls, adding them to His church in a quantitative increase. "And the Lord added to the church daily those who were being saved" (Acts 2:47). The Lord also enriches those He saves, bringing to His church qualitative development. "And with great power the apostles gave witness to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And great grace was upon them all" (Acts 4:33).
Fourth, His promise settles the issue of ownership. "I will build My (Jesus') church." The church does not belong to the Pastor, the Church Board, or the District Office. It is Jesus' church. He paid the price to redeem us: "the church of God which He purchased with His own blood" (Acts 20:28).
Fifth, this promise specifies exactly what Jesus is going to build. "I will build My church (His people)." The church is not a building. This word (church) literally speaks of "a called out people." "But you are…His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; who once were not a people but are now the people of God" (1 Peter 2:9-10).
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
In My InBox
I love how much listens and cares for us. He knows me so well and what's on myheart that I often wonder if He's in my head - O wait He is ;0)
this was my thought process this morning and then i go to my email and get this devotion
What's Your Measure?In Luke 6:38, Jesus said these words:"Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you."That is a promise of Jesus that you can stake your life on. Give and what happens? It will be given to you good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over. Sounds like fun, doesn't it?!But notice that He also added this, "The same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you." If you take a serving spoon, and that is what you measure out your giving with, you will get an overflowing serving spoon. It comes back to you good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and overflowing from a serving spoon.The measure you use is what is measured back to you. If you use a shovel, and that is what you measure it out with, that is how it comes back to you.Wouldn't you rather have a good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over shovel as opposed to a serving spoon? The measure you use, Jesus said, that is what is used to measure back to you.I believe many people are using a teaspoon and yet they are praying, "God bless me. I have big needs." I am sure God is saying, "I'm doing all I can. You know, I'm pressing it down as much as I can press it down. It is running over. But a running over teaspoon is just not that much."Are you using a teaspoon or a shovel? Whatever you use is what comes back multiplied, but it is only according to the measure you use.
I'm getting a bulldozer shovel today!
this was my thought process this morning and then i go to my email and get this devotion
What's Your Measure?In Luke 6:38, Jesus said these words:"Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you."That is a promise of Jesus that you can stake your life on. Give and what happens? It will be given to you good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over. Sounds like fun, doesn't it?!But notice that He also added this, "The same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you." If you take a serving spoon, and that is what you measure out your giving with, you will get an overflowing serving spoon. It comes back to you good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and overflowing from a serving spoon.The measure you use is what is measured back to you. If you use a shovel, and that is what you measure it out with, that is how it comes back to you.Wouldn't you rather have a good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over shovel as opposed to a serving spoon? The measure you use, Jesus said, that is what is used to measure back to you.I believe many people are using a teaspoon and yet they are praying, "God bless me. I have big needs." I am sure God is saying, "I'm doing all I can. You know, I'm pressing it down as much as I can press it down. It is running over. But a running over teaspoon is just not that much."Are you using a teaspoon or a shovel? Whatever you use is what comes back multiplied, but it is only according to the measure you use.
I'm getting a bulldozer shovel today!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
okay - i'm worried that my last post "I Suck" is the last thing that's been posted for the past few days. I'm better, well at least from all that stuff. Gosh that was a really hard day and it was a bit cathartic for me to be so raw here in blogsville. Even though some of the readers out there think it's completely out of line that I would post such a thing. ( I won't even comment on that ) Well fast forward to now - God is doing such a hard yet imperative work in my life right now. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised that it's coming right before VBS. God has a way of really taking me to the end of myself each VBS year and forcing me, since apparently I just won't do it on my own, to rely completely on His strength in me. I could sit here and go on and on about how sad that I just can't learn this lesson and how pathetic that it is, but instead I'll just praise my Jesus for His faithfulness to care so much about the task that I need to do that He won't let any of me be apart of it. So Praise You Wonderful Faithful Jehovah-Shammah, You are Perfect and Your Ways are Perfect I surrender to this work that You are doing!
Aaahhhhh - VBS - I love VBS - (I actually started this blog last VBS year)
This years VBS Worship team consist of 12 members - WOW I remember the days when Julie and I were it, praying so hard that more would come. Well they sure have come and there are days I think what in the world have I gotten myself into ;0) We have 18 people currently involved in Children's worship. I'm just thankful that only 12 of us are doing VBS. I know it will be great though. God has given us such great music. Making choreography has been harder than normal though. I think I'm just getting to old. Maybe I'll get someone to video tape some of the worship during VBS and post it on God Tube. You all have to see 350 kids worshiping to Newsboys - Presence or MercyMe - So Long Self. It doesn't get much better than that. If you read this and you love my Jesus send up a prayer for me that I might remain in Him and be ablessing in all I do at VBS. Thanks
remember - Keep chasing righteousness!!!
Aaahhhhh - VBS - I love VBS - (I actually started this blog last VBS year)
This years VBS Worship team consist of 12 members - WOW I remember the days when Julie and I were it, praying so hard that more would come. Well they sure have come and there are days I think what in the world have I gotten myself into ;0) We have 18 people currently involved in Children's worship. I'm just thankful that only 12 of us are doing VBS. I know it will be great though. God has given us such great music. Making choreography has been harder than normal though. I think I'm just getting to old. Maybe I'll get someone to video tape some of the worship during VBS and post it on God Tube. You all have to see 350 kids worshiping to Newsboys - Presence or MercyMe - So Long Self. It doesn't get much better than that. If you read this and you love my Jesus send up a prayer for me that I might remain in Him and be ablessing in all I do at VBS. Thanks
remember - Keep chasing righteousness!!!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
I suck!!!
okay
so this morning I listened to this difficult but amazing message ( previous post) then my day began and at every single turn, there was a challenge, incompetence, people misunderstanding every action, people expecting me to preform magic - i thought i was going to bust because I knew i was blowing it - over and ever the words from THAT MESSAGE came rolling in my mind - yet I just couldn't get out of this yucky mode - Lord what are you wanting from me!!! (as if I really needed to ask that) - DIE SUSAN DIE SUSAN - don't let satan win - my heart hurt so much, could anyone even tell i was hurting so much from my own yuck - it didn't matter because my perfect loving DADDY did and all He wanted was for me to run to Him to praise Him in the storm of this day - so now i can breath and lick my wounds and allow the pain of shame and discouragement to be turned in to a heart of humility and submission to a Holy God - Yes Jesus I choose You even if everyday is like today. I choose You!
so this morning I listened to this difficult but amazing message ( previous post) then my day began and at every single turn, there was a challenge, incompetence, people misunderstanding every action, people expecting me to preform magic - i thought i was going to bust because I knew i was blowing it - over and ever the words from THAT MESSAGE came rolling in my mind - yet I just couldn't get out of this yucky mode - Lord what are you wanting from me!!! (as if I really needed to ask that) - DIE SUSAN DIE SUSAN - don't let satan win - my heart hurt so much, could anyone even tell i was hurting so much from my own yuck - it didn't matter because my perfect loving DADDY did and all He wanted was for me to run to Him to praise Him in the storm of this day - so now i can breath and lick my wounds and allow the pain of shame and discouragement to be turned in to a heart of humility and submission to a Holy God - Yes Jesus I choose You even if everyday is like today. I choose You!
Read at your own risk
Complaining
leads
to
Rebellion!
just listened to a really great, but difficult message that Julie posted on her blog. Just read the above statement and allow God to do what only He can do.
http://www.joncourson.com/teaching/teachingsplay.asp?teaching=OT5071
leads
to
Rebellion!
just listened to a really great, but difficult message that Julie posted on her blog. Just read the above statement and allow God to do what only He can do.
http://www.joncourson.com/teaching/teachingsplay.asp?teaching=OT5071
Sunday, June 29, 2008
to pick a topic
I have so many little things i want to share, i feel like I'm busting at the seems with little nuggets - I love when God's truths are pouring down......
okay this one I was studying this morning. I listened to this amazing teaching on 2 Kings 6. I took some notes and I did some digging in myself so I'll just share it as a whole.
2King6:1-7
Now the sons of the prophets said to Elisha, "Behold now, the place before you where we are living is too limited for us. 2 "Please let us go to the Jordan and each of us take from there a beam, and let us make a place there for ourselves where we may live." So he said, "Go." 3 Then one said, "Please be willing to go with your servants." And he answered , "I shall go." 4 So he went with them; and when they came to the Jordan, they cut down trees. 5 But as one was felling a beam, the axe head fell into the water; and he cried out and said, "Alas, my master! For it was borrowed." 6 Then the man of God said, "Where did it fall?" And when he showed him the place, he cut off a stick and threw it in there, and made the iron float. 7 He said, "Take it up for yourself." So he put out his hand and took it.
:Lots of little insights in:
Have you lost your cutting edge like the man in the story? Notice he was right in the middle of service, in God's will when he lost his cutting edge. This guy didn't blame anyone else for losing his ax head he knew it was his fault. If we blame others we will never be able to recover what we have lost. Notice that when he lost the ax head he stopped chopping. Duh! you might say but think about it, how often can we lose our ax head and continue working. We need to stop what we are doing and go back to where we lost it and recover our ax head (cutting edge). Be willing to ask someone that will be honest with you the hard questions like; is my life fruitful? am I growing? are you just going through the motions.
When this guy lost his edge he knew where to go " alas my master" - there should only be one place we go, to Jesus. He is the only one who can give us our edge back. In the old testament the prophet was the man of God and how they could talk to God. We are privilege to live in the time where we can go directly to the Lord ourselves. Notice they both had to go to the place where he lost the ax head. Just as we have to take Jesus with us to the place we lost ours. I love how when he took the prophet to the place there was a miracle that brought the ax head back. When we take Jesus to the place in our lives, He will do what seemed impossible because with Him all things are possible. Notice how the man still had to reach out and grab the axe head . Even when God does the impossible for us there is still an action for us to do. remember this is what faith is it is an action. It reminds me of when I was studying Esther and the King held our the scepter for her. She still needed to reach out and take it. We always have our part, let's not ever forget that. All this to say Have you lost your cutting edge? if so go back to when you lost it, take our Lord Jesus with you and allow Him to do what only He can do and be obedient to what He ask of you in the process.
sweet simple stuff! ;0)
okay this one I was studying this morning. I listened to this amazing teaching on 2 Kings 6. I took some notes and I did some digging in myself so I'll just share it as a whole.
2King6:1-7
Now the sons of the prophets said to Elisha, "Behold now, the place before you where we are living is too limited for us. 2 "Please let us go to the Jordan and each of us take from there a beam, and let us make a place there for ourselves where we may live." So he said, "Go." 3 Then one said, "Please be willing to go with your servants." And he answered , "I shall go." 4 So he went with them; and when they came to the Jordan, they cut down trees. 5 But as one was felling a beam, the axe head fell into the water; and he cried out and said, "Alas, my master! For it was borrowed." 6 Then the man of God said, "Where did it fall?" And when he showed him the place, he cut off a stick and threw it in there, and made the iron float. 7 He said, "Take it up for yourself." So he put out his hand and took it.
:Lots of little insights in:
Have you lost your cutting edge like the man in the story? Notice he was right in the middle of service, in God's will when he lost his cutting edge. This guy didn't blame anyone else for losing his ax head he knew it was his fault. If we blame others we will never be able to recover what we have lost. Notice that when he lost the ax head he stopped chopping. Duh! you might say but think about it, how often can we lose our ax head and continue working. We need to stop what we are doing and go back to where we lost it and recover our ax head (cutting edge). Be willing to ask someone that will be honest with you the hard questions like; is my life fruitful? am I growing? are you just going through the motions.
When this guy lost his edge he knew where to go " alas my master" - there should only be one place we go, to Jesus. He is the only one who can give us our edge back. In the old testament the prophet was the man of God and how they could talk to God. We are privilege to live in the time where we can go directly to the Lord ourselves. Notice they both had to go to the place where he lost the ax head. Just as we have to take Jesus with us to the place we lost ours. I love how when he took the prophet to the place there was a miracle that brought the ax head back. When we take Jesus to the place in our lives, He will do what seemed impossible because with Him all things are possible. Notice how the man still had to reach out and grab the axe head . Even when God does the impossible for us there is still an action for us to do. remember this is what faith is it is an action. It reminds me of when I was studying Esther and the King held our the scepter for her. She still needed to reach out and take it. We always have our part, let's not ever forget that. All this to say Have you lost your cutting edge? if so go back to when you lost it, take our Lord Jesus with you and allow Him to do what only He can do and be obedient to what He ask of you in the process.
sweet simple stuff! ;0)
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Th Richardson's Update
okay i've had a few request of what's going on with the Richardson's so here it is briefly (don't laugh)
Bobby: He's amazing - work is good and we are so thankful that during a time when so many are out of work that Bobby is working well and doing what God requires of him as the head of our home, supporting his family. He is very busy with Church: Sports Ministry that is always ongoing - Pointmam Leadership Training - a sub in Children's but there is a little something you all have to know. Bobby works more than most reg. Children's Ministry workers and he's just a sub. We often laugh about this one. I know that it's because the coordinators know he is faithful, so if it be 1st service, 2nd service, Saturday nights or wed, he is there working somewhere. You know i suppose the Wed. gig is a reg. gym thing, I forgot. Bobby spends a good portion of his time helping the body of Christ - seems there is always a phone call coming in that needs Bobby and with his smile intact he jumps to it, honored that he would even be asked. So many behind the scenes things that he does out of a sweet heart or maybe it's he's a bit OCD and he just can't walk away, well which ever it is the smile is always in place from a pure heart. All this to say Bobby is great, he's more than great and if you know him, you know what I'm talking about. (I love you honeyxoxoxo)
Aaron - let's see - we finished up 4th grade and he did fairly well, A's and 1 B - so now i have a 5th grader - if you didn't hear me i just exhaled with a moan! He is growing up so fast - Sports is his thing - he will be starting basketball camp here in a week and we are all excited about that ( yes for me it's selfish, I'll have 8 hours everyday for me, church actually it's vbs prep-time) he's a skater and so far so good no ER visits. Please Lord keep it that way. Aaron loves church and gets upset with me when I won't take him with me when i need to go during the week for work. I'm sure it has nothing to do with the fact that we have this great basketball gym at church ;0) - being an only child makes for some pretty boring days so we try to have at least 2 days a week with friends either i have the boys here or Aaron is going somewhere with them. PlayStation is another favorite past time ( it's a daddy and Aaron thing) but i must say Aaron won't just sit on that thing for hours on end - it's strange but I'm just thankful that we don't have that issue. His electric guitar playing is getting really good, he has such natural talent - so yes i live with a "ROCKSTAR" - His new found thing is Club Penguin on line. Yes it's basically a chat room for kids and i monitor heavily. I know it's "safe" everyone yells at me saying it's fine but I trust nothing - anyway, Aaron loves going on that thing and most days earns the time to play on it. He'd kill me if he knew i posted this but yes he still loves to cuddle with me - every moring he just holds me until i finally have to ask him to get up - i will covet everyday this continues ( don't worry i won't turn into that ridiculous book about the mom and her son and their love, you know the one where he is a grown adult and she's climbing into his room at night to hold him - that book cracks me up) He also spends alot of time with Geoffrey, our dog - which segways into his update
Geoffrey: first let me say at writing time he is very sick we spent a day in the er with him and they still don't know what is wrong with him. $$$$ later and our baby is still not well and we don't know why - Geoffrey has been the source of life and energy in this home,one of the family for sure and unless you have your own pet that is apart of your family this just is going to seem crazy talk. We're sure he's the smartest family member and we pride ourselves over here at being pretty smart - I'd give you stories but i know how most feel about family pet stories so I'll close with my sweet caption about my Geoffrey.
Me: let's see what's going on with me.........................nothing I'm basically lazy.
Bobby: He's amazing - work is good and we are so thankful that during a time when so many are out of work that Bobby is working well and doing what God requires of him as the head of our home, supporting his family. He is very busy with Church: Sports Ministry that is always ongoing - Pointmam Leadership Training - a sub in Children's but there is a little something you all have to know. Bobby works more than most reg. Children's Ministry workers and he's just a sub. We often laugh about this one. I know that it's because the coordinators know he is faithful, so if it be 1st service, 2nd service, Saturday nights or wed, he is there working somewhere. You know i suppose the Wed. gig is a reg. gym thing, I forgot. Bobby spends a good portion of his time helping the body of Christ - seems there is always a phone call coming in that needs Bobby and with his smile intact he jumps to it, honored that he would even be asked. So many behind the scenes things that he does out of a sweet heart or maybe it's he's a bit OCD and he just can't walk away, well which ever it is the smile is always in place from a pure heart. All this to say Bobby is great, he's more than great and if you know him, you know what I'm talking about. (I love you honeyxoxoxo)
Aaron - let's see - we finished up 4th grade and he did fairly well, A's and 1 B - so now i have a 5th grader - if you didn't hear me i just exhaled with a moan! He is growing up so fast - Sports is his thing - he will be starting basketball camp here in a week and we are all excited about that ( yes for me it's selfish, I'll have 8 hours everyday for me, church actually it's vbs prep-time) he's a skater and so far so good no ER visits. Please Lord keep it that way. Aaron loves church and gets upset with me when I won't take him with me when i need to go during the week for work. I'm sure it has nothing to do with the fact that we have this great basketball gym at church ;0) - being an only child makes for some pretty boring days so we try to have at least 2 days a week with friends either i have the boys here or Aaron is going somewhere with them. PlayStation is another favorite past time ( it's a daddy and Aaron thing) but i must say Aaron won't just sit on that thing for hours on end - it's strange but I'm just thankful that we don't have that issue. His electric guitar playing is getting really good, he has such natural talent - so yes i live with a "ROCKSTAR" - His new found thing is Club Penguin on line. Yes it's basically a chat room for kids and i monitor heavily. I know it's "safe" everyone yells at me saying it's fine but I trust nothing - anyway, Aaron loves going on that thing and most days earns the time to play on it. He'd kill me if he knew i posted this but yes he still loves to cuddle with me - every moring he just holds me until i finally have to ask him to get up - i will covet everyday this continues ( don't worry i won't turn into that ridiculous book about the mom and her son and their love, you know the one where he is a grown adult and she's climbing into his room at night to hold him - that book cracks me up) He also spends alot of time with Geoffrey, our dog - which segways into his update
Geoffrey: first let me say at writing time he is very sick we spent a day in the er with him and they still don't know what is wrong with him. $$$$ later and our baby is still not well and we don't know why - Geoffrey has been the source of life and energy in this home,one of the family for sure and unless you have your own pet that is apart of your family this just is going to seem crazy talk. We're sure he's the smartest family member and we pride ourselves over here at being pretty smart - I'd give you stories but i know how most feel about family pet stories so I'll close with my sweet caption about my Geoffrey.
Me: let's see what's going on with me.........................nothing I'm basically lazy.
Monday, June 23, 2008
"BUT GOD"
Our Lord Jesus is so amazing. I want to share my story with you in what He has done.
I have been dealing with a pretty painful abdomen issue for a year now. Well, about 2-3 month ago it began to get worse. I had what felt like this growth that extended from my right rib cage. I had other people feel it as to not think I was going entirely crazy. They all confirmed yes they too had felt it. Anyway, when Bobby continued to see me go downhill he told me to get back to the Dr’s. They ran blood test and an ultra sound. And yes my Dr even confirmed she had felt the same mass as I had and it was not normal. She thought it was my liver that might be enlarged. Fast forward to getting my results, everything is perfectly healthy. One would think I was a health freak that worked out everyday, when you look at my blood work. The problem, I continued to get worse. My mobility was very limited and the pain so bad I was constantly getting sick. The Purity Conference http://www.purepassion08.com/ was quickly approaching and I knew I was going to be there pretty much around the clock for 3 days. Come this past Friday, day one of Purity, I was very bad. I sent out a prayer request and begged for prayer. Should I go to the ER or should I go to Church and do what I was committed to do? That was the question. Now some might think the answer is easy (ER) but I had no peace. For the first time in years I had no peace and I was even more afraid of that. I believe where no peace is, God is not in it. So now my heart was breaking. I went to the shower and cried my eyes out to God asking for forgiveness that I wasn’t trusting or seeing Him in any of this and begging Him to show me the urgent for the day: Purity Conference or ER? When I had cried all I could cry and prayed all I could pray I turned off the shower and my phone was ringing. It was Steph Finn and there was an issue at church that really I needed to be the one to deal with it. God had showed me His urgent. Now, I figured I’d get to church and I would begin to feel better. No, I got to church and got worse. Knowing I was doing what God required of me, I pushed through (maybe my word ENDURE had something to do with it). I tried really hard to pull off to MOST people that everything was fine. Not sure how well I did on that but anyway around midnight I was sitting down and I told Bobby that I was going to go to the ER. With just his sweet loving way he looked at me and said, “No I don’t think you should go, just wait until your Dr gets back on Monday”. Now my first reaction in my head was ‘he doesn’t even care’. Then I (by the Lord) was reminded of my 30-day Husband challenge and that the one thing I have always struggled with in my marriage is submission. Not in the way that most struggle. You see Bobby requires so very little of me that I always feel like of course I’ve got this submission thing down but wisdom tells me that I just don’t understand it on that level. It’s hard to know what submission looks like when the person is someone like my wonderful husband.
BINGO!!!!! Got it Lord, was my second thought. In submitting to what he was telling me to do not only with my actions but in my heart, I was then right with God. Honestly, I tell you that as soon as I had that thought I had this peace pour over me like a washing of the Holy Spirit. I could actually feel it from head to toe. My heart was so full of joy and peace. Later that night or I should say morning when we got home from day 1 of the conference and I climbed into bed (actually the couch – for fear that Bobby might touch my very hurting body, I slept for 1 ½ hours and when I got up, yes tired but I realized my pain was going away. All day Saturday my pain slowly went away. 19 hours on my feet working on Saturday and yes my feet hurt like a dickens, cause apparently dickens hurts (where does that come from? Maybe I don’t want to know ;0) ) but my pain in my abdomen was 70% gone. So now here it is Monday and the only pain I feel is if I push real hard on one part.
Of course if my Dr. pursues this I will, but I know spiritual warfare was HUGE and I have learned much wisdom and knowledge. I thank my Jesus with tears in my eyes that He considered me worthy enough to go throough this. I guess I’m finally growing up.
Praise the Lord Jesus!!!!
I have been dealing with a pretty painful abdomen issue for a year now. Well, about 2-3 month ago it began to get worse. I had what felt like this growth that extended from my right rib cage. I had other people feel it as to not think I was going entirely crazy. They all confirmed yes they too had felt it. Anyway, when Bobby continued to see me go downhill he told me to get back to the Dr’s. They ran blood test and an ultra sound. And yes my Dr even confirmed she had felt the same mass as I had and it was not normal. She thought it was my liver that might be enlarged. Fast forward to getting my results, everything is perfectly healthy. One would think I was a health freak that worked out everyday, when you look at my blood work. The problem, I continued to get worse. My mobility was very limited and the pain so bad I was constantly getting sick. The Purity Conference http://www.purepassion08.com/ was quickly approaching and I knew I was going to be there pretty much around the clock for 3 days. Come this past Friday, day one of Purity, I was very bad. I sent out a prayer request and begged for prayer. Should I go to the ER or should I go to Church and do what I was committed to do? That was the question. Now some might think the answer is easy (ER) but I had no peace. For the first time in years I had no peace and I was even more afraid of that. I believe where no peace is, God is not in it. So now my heart was breaking. I went to the shower and cried my eyes out to God asking for forgiveness that I wasn’t trusting or seeing Him in any of this and begging Him to show me the urgent for the day: Purity Conference or ER? When I had cried all I could cry and prayed all I could pray I turned off the shower and my phone was ringing. It was Steph Finn and there was an issue at church that really I needed to be the one to deal with it. God had showed me His urgent. Now, I figured I’d get to church and I would begin to feel better. No, I got to church and got worse. Knowing I was doing what God required of me, I pushed through (maybe my word ENDURE had something to do with it). I tried really hard to pull off to MOST people that everything was fine. Not sure how well I did on that but anyway around midnight I was sitting down and I told Bobby that I was going to go to the ER. With just his sweet loving way he looked at me and said, “No I don’t think you should go, just wait until your Dr gets back on Monday”. Now my first reaction in my head was ‘he doesn’t even care’. Then I (by the Lord) was reminded of my 30-day Husband challenge and that the one thing I have always struggled with in my marriage is submission. Not in the way that most struggle. You see Bobby requires so very little of me that I always feel like of course I’ve got this submission thing down but wisdom tells me that I just don’t understand it on that level. It’s hard to know what submission looks like when the person is someone like my wonderful husband.
BINGO!!!!! Got it Lord, was my second thought. In submitting to what he was telling me to do not only with my actions but in my heart, I was then right with God. Honestly, I tell you that as soon as I had that thought I had this peace pour over me like a washing of the Holy Spirit. I could actually feel it from head to toe. My heart was so full of joy and peace. Later that night or I should say morning when we got home from day 1 of the conference and I climbed into bed (actually the couch – for fear that Bobby might touch my very hurting body, I slept for 1 ½ hours and when I got up, yes tired but I realized my pain was going away. All day Saturday my pain slowly went away. 19 hours on my feet working on Saturday and yes my feet hurt like a dickens, cause apparently dickens hurts (where does that come from? Maybe I don’t want to know ;0) ) but my pain in my abdomen was 70% gone. So now here it is Monday and the only pain I feel is if I push real hard on one part.
Of course if my Dr. pursues this I will, but I know spiritual warfare was HUGE and I have learned much wisdom and knowledge. I thank my Jesus with tears in my eyes that He considered me worthy enough to go throough this. I guess I’m finally growing up.
Praise the Lord Jesus!!!!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Offense - I'm sorry if it hurts - well not intirely!
I had no intention of posting about this but it seems to be this driving theme that continues to come up, almost daily, in one way or another. Offense: being offended /or being the one that is offensive. So often anymore I hear of a situation one way or the other. Or even if that isn’t the obvious thing, it is, it’s just camouflaged as something else. Lately on KWVE I’ve heard 4 messages on it, not to mention the most wise understanding one from Jon Courson http://www.joncourson.com/teaching/teachingsplay.asp?teaching=T418
Yes, of course I know that the Lord is speaking loud and clear to me, and I do take heed and see my own fault in this area. But, I do believe that God has shown me some wisdom in that this is an area that we as Christian people, especially women have allowed the “enemy” to hold the master key to for far to long. It’s time to collect our keys people and give them back to Jesus. If we really understood that one of his, meaning the ‘pig monster’ biggest plans is to bring division. If we stayed mindful of this tactic, I believe we would have the ability to recognize ‘his’ part in most of the situations in our lives that deal with offense. So the question becomes. Are we going to let ‘him’ keep hold of that key or are we going to do the harder more uncomfortable thing and take it back, knowing that a life of greater peace and joy, love and kindness is there for our taking? Yes, I know it sounds like a no-brainer but honestly are you gonna do it? In the Jon Courson teaching there is so much great wisdom there but one thing that comes to my mind that was so great is
“If someone is offensive to you – correct him. – forgive them If I don’t rebuke them and they later make amends to you will have a thread of bitterness that will become even more difficult then the original offense to deal with.
If you wrong me and keep wronging me and I don’t rebuke you I am allowing something dastardly to happen in my soul – because when I rebuke someone in love, my perspective gets corrected – I realize my perspective was faulty – because I get info I didn’t have before then it helps me make sense to the whole situation – I may even find out I had it all wrong - but if I don’t rebuke in love my 1 sided perspective becomes bitter and a web of deception begins to grow”
I am also attaching a letter that a friend of mine received from a good friend of hers on offense. Please read it and ask the Lord to show you wisdom in your own life. I’m sure that I’m sure that we have given our master key to the wrong person. Let’s makes this be the day that we do the right thing and take it back. Sure, we are gonna be tested in this area but that should only encourage us to realize that we are indeed doing the right thing. Here is the letter:
Dear Sisters,
It was kind of a toss up as to where to post this one, but I decided to post it here. I've been thinking lately about something and I wanted to share some thoughts with you.
Is it ever OK for a believer to be offended or is it sin? We often hear someone say (or we have said ourselves), "You have offended me" or "I was so offended by what you said or did". Do we mean that our feelings were hurt or is this just a *Christian* cover for anger? Hmmm, let's look at a few things.
Webster's gives some of these definitions for offended: "to cause to feel vexation or resentment usually by violation of what is proper or fitting", "to cause pain to". Are we feeling vexation or resentment and calling it "being offended" thinking that justifies our sin?
I have been in churches where everyone was what I called an *offense waiting to happen*. You had to walk on eggshells and still someone would be offended by what you said or didn't say, by what you did or didn't do. A pastor was called unfriendly and therefore unloving because he didn't always say hello to certain people on Sunday morning. Hearts were so self-focused that no one was able to see beyond their own selfish lives to the possible needs of another. Every action or word was not looked upon with love and compassion toward other people but as if it was intentionally directed at ME. Is this where God wants us to be??
Are we to be making assumptions about other's spirituality based on our own selfish focus? Are we to be quick to anger, quick to take up resentment, quick to take account of a wrong suffered, quick to believe the worst about one another?
We look at our children and sibling rivalry and shake our heads in exasperation at their sinful and self-centered hearts. Where in the world do these attitudes come from, we ask ourselves. "Your dress touched my dress!!" "You are on my side of the couch!" "Mom, he's looking at me!!" Are they seeing in US the attitude of being quickly offended? "Pastor, she's doing such and such and I'm offended!" "Did you hear what so and so said? I can't believe it and I am just so offended!" "How could a true believer not see how much I am offended by such and such?"
In years past I was one of those "walk on eggshells around THAT one" type of person. I believed the worst about others and was prepared to defend myself to the death assuming that others were ready to stick a knife in MY back! And this was when I was a believer! But God in His mercy has shown me a deeper understanding of His love and mercy and grace. He has taught me a little bit (or rather I have learned a little bit) about assuming the best until I am PROVED wrong. I have seen first-hand what God means when He requires us to turn the other cheek.
And you know what? MY life is much happier and more pleasant when I focus on others with love. I have greater joy and freedom to love others because I don't feel like I HAVE to fight for #1 (as the world tells us)...that's God's job! My job is to be willing to be poured out as a drink offering for the sake of others and the glory and honor of the One who bought my life. My job is to be willing to live a life of sacrificial, unsung servant hood to those He came to save. My job is to see that "He must increase, I must decrease." OUCH!!
How often am I looking for that recognition that *I* am so wonderful! Thinking 'boy, didn't God get a great deal when He chose me!' Convincing myself that I and I alone have the corner on the truth market and everyone else is barely keeping their heads above water! Rationalizing my sin as *weaknesses* that others will have to put up with while pointing out every speck in the eyes of my fellow brethren. Knowing clearly how others are "so legalistic" in their convictions or "being sucked into the deception of the enemy" in the freedoms they enjoy while at the same time believing that I (and I alone again) am living the balance that God reveals to us.
I guess I've just been thinking about my heart this Christmas season. Many of us will be spending time with families or friends. Some of us will be spending quiet time alone with our husbands and children. Some of us will even be counting this as just another day. It just seemed to me a good time to reflect on our attitudes toward others as we may be spending time with others. We may be with the unsaved or with believers who don't hold the same convictions that we do. It might be a good time for us to go before the Lord and ask Him to examine our attitudes and perspectives toward others. I've been asking myself these questions:
Am I extending to others the grace the Lord extends to me?
Am I willing to be misunderstood as I seek to understand others more fully?
Am I willing to drop a contentious point without "getting the last word in"?
Am I trusting the sanctifying work of the Lord in the lives of other believers even if they seem to be going in a direction very different from my own?
Am I working to have the "goal of my instruction" be love?
Am I realizing that "knowledge puffs up but love builds up" and am I therefore pursing love above all else?
Am I working to believe the best about others and to think that major differences we seem to have are probably misunderstandings that can be put to right with loving, open and humble communication? (This is different from trying to persuade that *I* am right, but to seek unity of spirit)
Am I centering my speech on the love and grace of the Lord rather than on me?
Hard questions for me to ask myself, but necessary if I am to work to keep a divisive and critical spirit far from my heart. How about you? Are these areas that God may be touching your heart on this Christmas season? May we all seek to follow Him more completely that people will see less and less of US and more and more of Him. This is the same Lord who said from the cross, "Father forgive them, for they know not what they do." This thought sends me to my knees in tears; humbled and awed.
I think we all have some work to do!
remember - Keep chasing rightesouness!!!!
Yes, of course I know that the Lord is speaking loud and clear to me, and I do take heed and see my own fault in this area. But, I do believe that God has shown me some wisdom in that this is an area that we as Christian people, especially women have allowed the “enemy” to hold the master key to for far to long. It’s time to collect our keys people and give them back to Jesus. If we really understood that one of his, meaning the ‘pig monster’ biggest plans is to bring division. If we stayed mindful of this tactic, I believe we would have the ability to recognize ‘his’ part in most of the situations in our lives that deal with offense. So the question becomes. Are we going to let ‘him’ keep hold of that key or are we going to do the harder more uncomfortable thing and take it back, knowing that a life of greater peace and joy, love and kindness is there for our taking? Yes, I know it sounds like a no-brainer but honestly are you gonna do it? In the Jon Courson teaching there is so much great wisdom there but one thing that comes to my mind that was so great is
“If someone is offensive to you – correct him. – forgive them If I don’t rebuke them and they later make amends to you will have a thread of bitterness that will become even more difficult then the original offense to deal with.
If you wrong me and keep wronging me and I don’t rebuke you I am allowing something dastardly to happen in my soul – because when I rebuke someone in love, my perspective gets corrected – I realize my perspective was faulty – because I get info I didn’t have before then it helps me make sense to the whole situation – I may even find out I had it all wrong - but if I don’t rebuke in love my 1 sided perspective becomes bitter and a web of deception begins to grow”
I am also attaching a letter that a friend of mine received from a good friend of hers on offense. Please read it and ask the Lord to show you wisdom in your own life. I’m sure that I’m sure that we have given our master key to the wrong person. Let’s makes this be the day that we do the right thing and take it back. Sure, we are gonna be tested in this area but that should only encourage us to realize that we are indeed doing the right thing. Here is the letter:
Dear Sisters,
It was kind of a toss up as to where to post this one, but I decided to post it here. I've been thinking lately about something and I wanted to share some thoughts with you.
Is it ever OK for a believer to be offended or is it sin? We often hear someone say (or we have said ourselves), "You have offended me" or "I was so offended by what you said or did". Do we mean that our feelings were hurt or is this just a *Christian* cover for anger? Hmmm, let's look at a few things.
Webster's gives some of these definitions for offended: "to cause to feel vexation or resentment usually by violation of what is proper or fitting", "to cause pain to". Are we feeling vexation or resentment and calling it "being offended" thinking that justifies our sin?
I have been in churches where everyone was what I called an *offense waiting to happen*. You had to walk on eggshells and still someone would be offended by what you said or didn't say, by what you did or didn't do. A pastor was called unfriendly and therefore unloving because he didn't always say hello to certain people on Sunday morning. Hearts were so self-focused that no one was able to see beyond their own selfish lives to the possible needs of another. Every action or word was not looked upon with love and compassion toward other people but as if it was intentionally directed at ME. Is this where God wants us to be??
Are we to be making assumptions about other's spirituality based on our own selfish focus? Are we to be quick to anger, quick to take up resentment, quick to take account of a wrong suffered, quick to believe the worst about one another?
We look at our children and sibling rivalry and shake our heads in exasperation at their sinful and self-centered hearts. Where in the world do these attitudes come from, we ask ourselves. "Your dress touched my dress!!" "You are on my side of the couch!" "Mom, he's looking at me!!" Are they seeing in US the attitude of being quickly offended? "Pastor, she's doing such and such and I'm offended!" "Did you hear what so and so said? I can't believe it and I am just so offended!" "How could a true believer not see how much I am offended by such and such?"
In years past I was one of those "walk on eggshells around THAT one" type of person. I believed the worst about others and was prepared to defend myself to the death assuming that others were ready to stick a knife in MY back! And this was when I was a believer! But God in His mercy has shown me a deeper understanding of His love and mercy and grace. He has taught me a little bit (or rather I have learned a little bit) about assuming the best until I am PROVED wrong. I have seen first-hand what God means when He requires us to turn the other cheek.
And you know what? MY life is much happier and more pleasant when I focus on others with love. I have greater joy and freedom to love others because I don't feel like I HAVE to fight for #1 (as the world tells us)...that's God's job! My job is to be willing to be poured out as a drink offering for the sake of others and the glory and honor of the One who bought my life. My job is to be willing to live a life of sacrificial, unsung servant hood to those He came to save. My job is to see that "He must increase, I must decrease." OUCH!!
How often am I looking for that recognition that *I* am so wonderful! Thinking 'boy, didn't God get a great deal when He chose me!' Convincing myself that I and I alone have the corner on the truth market and everyone else is barely keeping their heads above water! Rationalizing my sin as *weaknesses* that others will have to put up with while pointing out every speck in the eyes of my fellow brethren. Knowing clearly how others are "so legalistic" in their convictions or "being sucked into the deception of the enemy" in the freedoms they enjoy while at the same time believing that I (and I alone again) am living the balance that God reveals to us.
I guess I've just been thinking about my heart this Christmas season. Many of us will be spending time with families or friends. Some of us will be spending quiet time alone with our husbands and children. Some of us will even be counting this as just another day. It just seemed to me a good time to reflect on our attitudes toward others as we may be spending time with others. We may be with the unsaved or with believers who don't hold the same convictions that we do. It might be a good time for us to go before the Lord and ask Him to examine our attitudes and perspectives toward others. I've been asking myself these questions:
Am I extending to others the grace the Lord extends to me?
Am I willing to be misunderstood as I seek to understand others more fully?
Am I willing to drop a contentious point without "getting the last word in"?
Am I trusting the sanctifying work of the Lord in the lives of other believers even if they seem to be going in a direction very different from my own?
Am I working to have the "goal of my instruction" be love?
Am I realizing that "knowledge puffs up but love builds up" and am I therefore pursing love above all else?
Am I working to believe the best about others and to think that major differences we seem to have are probably misunderstandings that can be put to right with loving, open and humble communication? (This is different from trying to persuade that *I* am right, but to seek unity of spirit)
Am I centering my speech on the love and grace of the Lord rather than on me?
Hard questions for me to ask myself, but necessary if I am to work to keep a divisive and critical spirit far from my heart. How about you? Are these areas that God may be touching your heart on this Christmas season? May we all seek to follow Him more completely that people will see less and less of US and more and more of Him. This is the same Lord who said from the cross, "Father forgive them, for they know not what they do." This thought sends me to my knees in tears; humbled and awed.
I think we all have some work to do!
remember - Keep chasing rightesouness!!!!
Monday, June 9, 2008
Tam & Bri out for a fast trip
this was really alot of effort to get this to happen - they are oil and water - she adores him but he is a stinker - it's more like they are brother and sister instead of cousins.
my hannie - she is so great and look at that face - i love you hannie
there are no words for what this is - the look on each ones face says it all!
okay i would love to lie to all you nice people and say this is josh singing to Jesus - o how sweet - - - - okay the truth, he was making some obnoxious noise and it happened to work for the camera - then he wanted to be sepia - no really he asked for sepiaToday is my 42nd Birthday! - actually i finished this list pretty fast so it's really not for 5 more hours exactly
In honor of the 42 years I have lived on this Earth - here are 42 things that make it all worth it.
1. Jesus is my Lord and He really really loves me
2. I'm married to Bobby and no one else got this amazing gem but me!!!!!
3. Aaron - my precious unexpected gift from God
4. Elohim - my Creator
5. my family - i love my family and miss them all so very much - i would break this down to individual statements about many of them, but then they would all be fighting as to who the favorites are - so as to not start world war 4 I'll say "family" ;0)
6. I get to be apart of the greatest ministry ever - we have the most fun serving God together. CCEA Children's Ministry
7. Adonai - my Lord and Master
8. my friends - I am blessed to have such faithful, genuine, loving friends - they say you can tell alot about a person by the company they keep - well i guess I'm sittin' pretty darn good! - oh yes and they are funny!!!
9. That I belong to a church that is committed to only teaching the pure Word of God, no matter how unpopular that can be. ( thank you Bob Kopeny) - CCEA http://www.cc-ea.org/
10. Jehovah-Jireh: my Provider
11. That God has allowed me to be apart of praying for big miracles and I get to watch Him do what only He can do. I BELIEVE IN MOUNTAIN MOVING MIRACLES!!!!!
12. That I get to be a stay at home mom and home school - even though most days I would rather poke myself with needles ;0) - i recognize it as a gift.
13. El-Shaddai: my God of Blessings
14. Geoffrey - he has brought so much joy to our family - who would have thunk it - (thanks steph)
15. Our home - we are blessed to be in this house
16. El-Elyon: the Most High God
17. That never does a day go by that I don't receive at least 1 phone call from a friend just because they love me. - that is rich!
18. I love the simplicity of my home life - very joyful and peaceful.
19. Jehovah-Shalom: the Peace of my Heart
20. I love walking through the halls at Church chatting with people and feeling that God is pleased. ( the greatest commandment is Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind - then love one another)
21. Jehovah-Rapha: God my Healer
22. I love waking up in the morning and drinking my 2 cups of coffee (actual 8) and spending time in the Word. That is my perfect happy place. Knowing Aaron is resting well. Bobby is in the shower singing praises to God, Geoffrey is laying at my feet. Life is good!!
23. Friends that love my son as their own - their care for Aaron over the years is gift.
24. Jehovah-Shammah: He will never leave me nor forsake me
25. "Super-Chica" - our late night crime solving on God's issues is a bit insanity but it's really pretty great. - we do solve the worlds problems - we are CRIMEFIGHTERS!!!!
26 _______________________ you fill in the blank
27. New friendships that are quickly growing deep roots - I can't wait to see what God is doing there.
28. My Mom - she chose to give me life - thank you Mom
29. Julian Charter Homeschooling - I never would have believed in a million years that I would not only be apart of a Charter School but then it would be such a rich blessing of God for our family - All I know is never say never - God has a way of taking you to those places, just so you remember who He is. Yet, another difficult lesson of putting Him in a box. Thank you Jesus for this way of schooling Aaron. http://www.juliancharterschool.org/
30. My job at church - this one is probably the most painful blessing - it's a constant source of humility and stretching but I see the growth in me because of it, therefore I am thankful for it.
31. Jehovah-Hoseenu: the Lord my Maker
32. Francis Chan - this man is truly anointed by God to teach truth - again the Lord taking me and my narrow perspective out of the box, to show me there are some really amazing Holy Spirit gifted Bible teachers out there and they're not even CC's Pastors. http://www.cornerstonesimi.com/
33. Margaret Ashmore - this is my favorite women's Bible teacher - now I'm really really really really really picky when it comes to Bible teachers and even more picky when it comes to women teachers - this one is the best - if you ever can get your hands on any of her stuff, be prepared to have your life changed radically for Christ. I have most all of her stuff, so feel free to ask me for copies. http://www.margaretashmore.com/
34. New Ministry - Abundant Life Home school Group - this one sure is taking me out of my comfort zone - but oh how thankful I am for the opportunity to grow and prayerfully be used by God in another way. - I'll be honest though this one is with alot of trepidation. However, I told my Lord that where He lead I would follow, so here I am treading on unknown waters. - o Lord please let it be a Jordan River into Cannan story - o gosh maybe not, i just remembered some of the really hard stuff about that journey.
35. that my life just might influence someone for Jesus. Matthew 5:16
36. Jehovah Rohi: the Lord my Shephard
37. Laughter - i love to laugh and i am surrounded by so many friends and family that get that about me and join right in.
38. For my hairstylist - but dang she's hard to book. - at least she doesn't make my hair green
39. Friends across the miles that enrich my life ssssssooooooo much. - you know who you are.
40. my Parents: each one of them , and there are many, each have played such a key role in who I am today. How blessed I have been to have them all.
41. music - i love listening to music - need a great cd? i'll make you one.
and last but not least
42. Jehovah-Tsidkenu: The Lord our Righteousness
Saturday, June 7, 2008
This one leaves you breathing hard
I was listening to a great, but difficult message that Julie recommended by Jon Courson. I highly recommend it but be prepared to have your perspective changed and your way corrected. Truth is you need to make the time for who you are in Christ to listen to this message.
http://www.joncourson.com/teaching/teachingsplay.asp?teaching=T418
I pray that I would walk in the light of this truth, keeping my focus on my Jesus and being willing to do what He requires, instead of what comes easier for my flesh. May we all listen with God's wisdom and abundant love.
remember to keep chasing righteousness!!!
thanks Julie K for sharing this message.
http://www.joncourson.com/teaching/teachingsplay.asp?teaching=T418
I pray that I would walk in the light of this truth, keeping my focus on my Jesus and being willing to do what He requires, instead of what comes easier for my flesh. May we all listen with God's wisdom and abundant love.
remember to keep chasing righteousness!!!
thanks Julie K for sharing this message.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Are you kiddin' me on this one!!!
so i was tagged by tam - i think i know what you want - let's get started
I...I
(verb)
I am: The apple of His Eye
I think: way to much!
I know: Who my Jesus is and what He can do for your life too.
I...I
(verb)
I am: The apple of His Eye
I think: way to much!
I know: Who my Jesus is and what He can do for your life too.
I want: to Make my Lord smile every day of my life
I have: so many blessings in Christ - I am truly spoiled
I wish: My whole family knew the Lord
I hate: Ignorance
I hate: Ignorance
I miss: Peggy
I fear:MY Lord
I fear:MY Lord
I feel: grateful for all that I get to do to serve Jesus
I hear: My son and his friend laughing
I smell: my passion tea that tam bought me.
I search: for treasures in His Word everyday
I search: for treasures in His Word everyday
I wonder: If I'll ever get my act together and get this weight off
I regret: not getting my act together
I regret: not getting my act together
I ache: At leaving this earth while aaron is still young
I care: about chasing righteousness!
I always: crack myself up - cause i think i'm funny
I always: crack myself up - cause i think i'm funny
I am not: gonna lie to you if you ask me a question - so you better really want the answer
I believe: In miracles.
I dance: ALL THE TIME - SOLID GOLD DANCER WAS MY CHILDHOOD GOAL - i'm still workin' on that ;0)
I dance: ALL THE TIME - SOLID GOLD DANCER WAS MY CHILDHOOD GOAL - i'm still workin' on that ;0)
I sing: All the time, not that it blesses anyone but at my age i do not care
I cry: not nearly enough.
I don’t always: do as much as i can - i'm basically lazy
I write: This blog, praying that someone may need to hear what i'm saying - i'm a bit delusional like that
I don’t always: do as much as i can - i'm basically lazy
I write: This blog, praying that someone may need to hear what i'm saying - i'm a bit delusional like that
I win: every morning when i have breath and when i receive my new dose of mercy
I lose: no weight recently - WHATEVER!!!!!
I never: want to walk on the beach in a bikini
I confuse: everyone!! DDUH!!!!
I listen: always
I can usually be found: at church about my Fathers biz
I am afraid of: a lizard eating my head off!! - yes brian it can happen
I need: only Jesus
I am happy about: my life that God has blessed me with
OK now my turn to tag someone so Steph consider yourself tagged. - i know you wont do it - i just had no one else to say
Spirit West Coast - Del Mar
aaron, zach and clay
He looks like he belongs with the band - Group 1 Crew
listening to Big Daddy Weave do sound ck's
Aaron and the girls - but it's all about the cow!
TobyMac
gosh they're cute!
Big Daddy Weave
Newsboys
We spent 3 days at the most amazing concert, Spirit West Coast. Here are a list of the bands that we saw:33 Miles
Needtobreathe
Leeland
Newsboys - they are so amazing - I have a new love for them.
Rush of Fools
Francesca Battistelli
Big Daddy Weave
Mathew West
Jars of Clay
TOBYMAC - steph and I danced like crazy high school girls for an hour and a half - so much fun!
Group 1 Crew - love this band
Aaron Shust
Barlow Girl
Kutless - They rocked hard - fantastic concert
Third Day - I now love them
Phil Joel - i went to see his kids concert - very fun stuff - great for children's minsitry
Now Aaron went with the big kids and watched some crazy bands like:
The Myriad
Seventh Day Slumber
Thousandfoot Krutch
Skillet
Stellar Kart
Disciple
Pillar
Bobby went to some of those same concerts with the kids - can you picture it bobby rockin' it to screamo while everyone's moshing - i chose not to see it ;0)
It was a great holiday weekend and one that we pray we can repeat again - there were about 50 other bands there as well, but you really had to pick and chose wisely and I chose wisely ;0)
Now in closing and I wish I had the picture of it ( steph has it). Steph and I went to see Aaron Shust and when we went back to the court yard to find kevin and bobby - well we found them all right - they were sound asleep in the sun sitting on chairs - all this craziness going on and these to old men, fast asleep - i suppose they just can't rock like they used to!!!!
go to http://fourfinns.blogspot.com/ to see some more great pix of SWC - steph's blog
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