Monday, April 14, 2008

why is it ssssooooo hard?????

so we are finishing up the book of Esther tomorrow night - I'm ready to move on but what an amazing journey this has been digging into Esther the way we have - i almost feel like i could write a commentary - i just pray i never forget all the nuggets i received from the Lord in Esther - - so he brews is the next path for our 'k' group - when i found out last month that we were doing he brews i was so excited, then i began to read it and okay i was lost and confused and that is putting it mildly - i know going from old testament to new is hard but this was going to really be harder than i thought - i just wasn't getting it -chapter 1 reading it over and over and over and over again - i looked at alot of commentaries, now even more lost - i begged God i pleaded and nothing - then last week after a night of no sleep and praying and praying, finally the eyes of my heart was opened and the fire was lit in my soul - thank you faithful, gracious, merciful Jesus!!! - sometimes it's so obvious that i make it hard.

The book of Hebrews is a letter or maybe even a sermon depending on how you want to look at it, written to the Jews who were new in their faith and those that were struggling with their new faith in Him. There was alot of persecution to the Jews for choosing Jesus by the other Jews and the Romans. The Christians were anxiously waiting Christ return to establish His Kingdom and they were starting to get a little antsy and the doubts of who He said he was was beginning to plague their minds. They needed to be reassured that Jesus is in fact the Messiah and that following Him was the right way.
This is a Book that will reaffirm the superiority of Christ above all and challenge us to evaluate if this is indeed His place in our lives today. I pray that the Holy Spirit will search me as I dive into this book and no longer allow me to be in denial in the areas that I claim His rightful place in my life, yet my Life says something entirely different : words I speak, things I do, thoughts I dwell on, choices I allow for my son, worries I give into etc... and so my journey begins
we need to believe that Jesus is all that He said He is before we can walk in the faith that the latter part of Hebrews talks about and once we walk in that faith we will be able to endure(my word) all that He calls us to endure.
Hebrews is broken in to those 3 areas:
He is who He says He is proving it from the old testament
faith
endure - hold fast

It's time to start living a life in Christ that reflects that we believe He is who He is - - good grief it's so convicting - God showed me a 17 year old sin in my life that I have yet to get past because I have not believed that He is who He says He is, that he really conquered all sin. I realize that to have strong holds from my past is proof that I am not truly living and walking in the truth of who my Jesus is. Now keep in mind I had no idea that this was the hard truth of that past sin. It never dawned on me that the reason it proved the kind of emotion in me that it does is because of this very simple yet difficult to do thing. 'JESUS' - I tend to think that this study of Hebrews is going to be painful, well for me anyways..........
on your mark...get set......GO!!!!!!!!!!!

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