Trust the process

i haven't been studying the Word over the past week except for just reading it - it's always so hard for me to really study when i'm not in my home environment - i know bad excuse - anyway there are a few things that really have been on my heart this past week as i have been reading and praying - desires - what are the things that we long to do for Jesus? is there a thing you long to do for Jesus? - is it a position at church? - is it something outside of the church? - do you wonder why it just hasn't happened yet? - in fact things seem to just get more complicated -you see there is a position well not a position it's more of a secret desire of what i would love to do for Jesus - it brings that excited fire in my belly when i think about it - o to be used of God in this way ( no i'm not gonna tell ya what it is - way to vulnerable ) anyway i realized that God is preparing me and it my take along time - then i realized what have i done with this desire? i have not even done it on a small scale with what God has given me - ouch that one hurt - you see there is something really wrong with having a pipe dream, you just sit around and want it talk about it ( me only to myself and God) but never do the necessary steps to pushing through the hard stuff in order for God to bring it about -so this little slap in my face has left me asking what should i be doing that i am not currently doing in order for God to guide me in His will with this desire?
Here's a ? for you - do you feel hurt, offended, slighted, over looked? - ever think that this is Gods purpose in exposing the yuck that is in your heart so as to deal with it and better prepare you for service for Him. - you see i find it interesting that you can have a desire and then when the crushing and looking impossible comes your way we can run off hurt, mad, frustrated...etc...when the truth is that is the process for the desire to come about - our Lord is so good that He needs the real us to be exposed so that we will finally let Him have His way with that thing in our heart that He can not use - to look at the trail today as the very road to being used greatly by God it sure can bring a better perspective to the situation. so let God ask us the hard questions:
Are you standing in the humility? are you willing to wait another week, month, year, or even 5 years or more in order for our God to turn clay pots into porcelain? is your behavior proving God right or satan right about who you are? how do others view your waiting?
what are you waiting for?
a tast for Jesus
a position
a child
a spouse
a friendship
__________ you fill in the blank - what ever it is trust God's Hand in the process even when the process is yucky and painful - do you trust the Sovereign God? either you do or you don't - do not be decieved there is no other option. - make sure your actions and thoughts match up to your answer.
i don't know about you put i need to go get busy!!!