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I wish it wasn't so hard to post these days. This season is a hard one filled with God doing some deep hard work in my heart. Apparently I prayed for that some time ago. I'd like to sit here and say how great I'm doing but the truth is it is so hard. Constantly dying to self. Never being able to defend myself when I seem to get in to the oddest most ridiculous situations that really have nothing to do with me. Realizing over and over again that I have no rights in ANYTHING and somehow that is a blessed place to be. Having to serve in ways that if it was up to me, I wouldn't. Feeling like I can't possibly do anything to make people chose the right thing. Having to watch train wrecks and I get to pray and pray some more. and then fast and pray. Then somehow when I sit with my Bible and beg God to meet me. It happens and He is there, He is here pouring His love on me and allowing me to experience Joy the real kind of joy when nothing in your circumstances have changed except your heart. Today my life is hard, challenged but I am a beloved child of "THE" God of the Universe who died on a cross for every sin that I have ever committed in my life and ever will commit. He rose from the dead just like He said He would and went to Heaven to prepare a place for ME His beloved daughter, Susan Lynn Richardson. It just doesn't get much better than that. Thank you Jesus!!!!

So today in my Study time I was re looking at my Exodus study. We ('k' group) just started the life of Moses Inductive Bible Study - it will take 2 years so you will be hearing lots about Moses over the next 2 years. Anyway, I love how you can do a study one day and the next day look at it again and still see more. I guess that's why we are to meditate on it day and night. ANYWAY -
Exodus 2:1-4
And a man of the house of Levi went and took as wife a daughter of Levi. 2 So the woman conceived and bore a son. And when she saw that he was a beautiful child, she hid him three months. 3 But when she could no longer hide him, she took an ark of bulrushes for him, daubed it with asphalt and pitch, put the child in it, and laid it in the reeds by the river's bank. 4 And his sister stood afar off, to know what would be done to him.

So we have Moses' mom who knows that the Hebrew boy babies are to be killed, taking action and making an ark to float him down the river. Well today when I looked at this again I realized how much hope she had. She didn't just give up and wait for the inevitable to happen she had hope that she could somehow still save his life. She became proactive in her hope, which to me proved that she really had hope. I started to ask myself where my hope was in my circumstances am I moving forward DOING. That is where the proof is in our walks. Are we moving forward or staying stuck . Do we just sit around talking a good game or are we being people of our words and living it out. Encouragement from God often comes in some unusual circumstances and today seeing Moses' mothers hope broke me out of my funk. Thank you Jesus for Your Word.
I'm sure none of this made much sense to you but that's okay - go read Exodus 2 and see what you see. It will be just what you need.

keep chasing righteousness!!